Amnesia Justine Part 1

Symbiosis Presentation Part 1

DailyNic #5

DailyNic #4: Tennis

About DailyNic

DailyNic #3

Ladies and gentlemen, I'm MeisterNic otherwise known as Nicolai Sidek and it's time for another #DailyNic #3! How awesome is that? Well today's DailyNic has a sad twist in it. Daily #1 and #2 were about my OCD and this wacky exam ritual I have but today is all about Christmas spirit :D Christmas (X'mas)is all about family bonding and bringing people closer. Doesn't matter if you don't get a lot of presents (really it doesn't) so long as the meaning of "we're together now" is there. Personally, I treat X'mas as my primary festival (is it a festival...dunno...I'm kinda down right now so I'm not thinking straight) even though I'm a Muslim. I honestly don't care what others say about it. The reason I bring this up is 'cuz in 2 days, the world will be celebrating X'mas. ME, I'M STUCK AT MY APARTMENT a few hundred miles across the ocean from home. This is the first time in my life I won't be celebrating with my family and it sickens me to death. I received a mini X'mas tree about 30 minutes ago and I immediately sang Jingle Bells. That's when reality hit me. I won't be celebrating it the usual way this year. Then I wept. Hard. Honest-to-God. It's not easy dealing with the thought of celebrating my favourite time of the year by myself, far away from home. I miss setting up the X'mas tree at my grandmas and putting presents under it. What more can I say? I'm a sucker when it comes to X'mas. I don't think there's another moment where I'll feel happy giving than receiving. It sort of works the other way round, isn't it? People would rather receive than to give. But not X'mas. It doesn't to that to people. So, for those of you celebrating X'mas with your families this year, I would just want you to take a minute to appreciate how special that moment is. Once they're gone, the void it leaves in your heart is just unbearable. Thanks for reading, people. See you in the next Daily. MeisterNic

The DailyNic

Brief introduction on what the DailyNic's about. In simple words, the Daily is an 'everyday' post about myself, be it OCD, silly but necessary rituals, fun facts or just simple ordinary things. I've posted DailyNic numbers 1 and 2 on my Twitter page so feel free to browse 'em. Here's the link to my Twitter page: http://www.twitter.com/dailynic Add me on Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/nicolaisidek

IWBTG Part 11 (You Gotta Love Street Fighter) - NO COMMENTARY

Unfelt Transformation

Ladies and gentlemen...in exactly 5 hours and 20 minutes I'll be entering adulthood. But how much of a difference does it make, right? It's not like I'll suddenly be taller and smarter than I already am...but it seems to be a big deal to everybody else. You know what, I'm gonna find something fun to do on my own tonight...Had a bit of situation just now. I'm clearly in a pissed off mood so my head isn't in the right place, literally! How is it that I'm getting hated by someone I care about when I didn't even do anything wrong at all!? Anyways, I don't think I'll be celebrating my birthday 'cuz I clearly don't see the point. I hate surprises. I don't hate gifts though...I can't say presents 'cuz my mum always tell me "You get presents all year long" and she's right. Presents mean nothing to me unless it's really2 special and that's rare. I've got a test tomorrow so I can't do anything stupid tonight...I still need to study for the test so yeah...I'll blog again in a few days. Right now I'm still angry as f*ck. 

Ineedbeer....

Stop Wasting Time

I've just finished watching Day9's playthrough of Amnesia: The Dark Descent. I'm not suppose to be doing that! My thesis proposal has not even started yet here I am busy watching YouTube. Heck, I even have time to blog about this sh*t...

What is wrong with me? I told myself awhile ago that the next time I turn on the laptop (now) I'll start my thesis. Instead of doing so, I started singing...and opened the devil (YouTube)...urgh....okay time to get serious: START MY THESIS PROPOSAL!....

FYI, my thesis is about tennis. Duh~ So predictable. :D

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Official Blog and Gamertag Name Change

It's been a while since I last blogged and probably won't be blogging anytime soon. My schedule is very packed and I'll be pretty much busy for the next 6 or so weeks. This is gonna be a short announcement. As some of you might know I've been using the name 'Killionaire' for YouTube, online gamertags and other stuff since 2007 and I think it's about time I change it. It's not very original but at least it's something I like saying....I'd figure I go for Nicmeister but if you google that name there's a bunch of nicmeisters already so...I turned it around. MeisterNic. Sounds very generic I know but yeah, I'm digging that name and I'm gonna use it on a permanent basis. And the blog's name Finding Heart will be changed to MeisterNic too for easy googling. Thanks and I'll see you guys next time :D

Find me:
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On Twitter: http://www.twitter.com/nicolaisidek

Cheers
Nic

On being Extremely Busy

Alright I know I planned to update my blog everyday during my time at Cameron Highlands but after Night 2 I was burdened with a lot of work and pressure so I'm very sorry I couldn't update it. As of right now I'm preposterously busy with assignments and I'm trying to control my stress level. So far I think I'm doing a good job at it. I'll try to get videos from Cameron up A.S.A.P. I just gotta find time to do the editing. My hard drive apparently overheated last night so I'm kinda freaked out about rendering videos ATM. Stay tuned for updates!


Peace :D

On Studio Interpretation Day II

05/10/11 (1:22 am)

            It’s not often you feel lucky in life. I personally do not believe in it; a mere faith from people who do not resort to ‘coincidences’. If there was ever a time where I say luck isn’t on my side I was probably because ‘Everybody says it’. Yesterday was different. My luck was really bad. We had to halt our inventory collection progress due to bad weather. What sucks is that we’re only ¼ of the 800m trail and we still have a long way to go with only ONE day left. It’s video day tomorrow for me so I’ll be hosting the ‘show’ and I haven’t prepared a proper script yet: I have always preferred spontaneous talking. The rest of my team members are under a lot of pressure because among all other trails, we have the shortest and easiest path so the area of interpretation we have to cover is wider (in radius) than the rest.

            That night we had to prepare a report on the little progress we made today. Fortunately our group was awarded a ‘good job’ by one the main Studio lecturers and the line “this is the first time I’ve seen this in Studio history and I think this is very good” will stay somewhere in the back of my mind to be recalled someday for motivational purposes. :P

Being me I’ve to not let that affect me or my team in anyway until our data collection is complete. Praises should mean nothing but a mere momentum booster. I should NEVER EVER let them go into my head and affect how I perform afterwards. What people usually do is take them praises and think they’re kings. I’m not the most humble on Earth but I’m trying my best to know where I stand. Congratulating people isn’t really the best way to tell them that they did a good job even before the job is done. There’s no time to celebrate now. Wait ‘till Studio 1 is finished and I get an A for it, then a congratulation is worth it. For now, my team and I have to give it our best ‘cause there isn’t any point of doing something if you’re not giving full commitment.

            Hey, it’s time to sleep. I’ve to be up at 7 am to continue Day 3 Inventory. :D

On Cars and Long Journeys

3/10/11 (7 p.m. – 1.00 a.m.)

Going to places never fails to excite anyone; unless of course it was for bad intention. I for one am always thrilled to explore other places I’ve never visited before. At the time of writing this I’m (with my peers) am at Cameron Highlands. Specifically Berrinchang (gotta check on the spelling).  We’re here for our Studio work involving interpretation of trails set by our lecturers. I won’t go into details what it’s all about but I’ll be sure to include some footage of the work we’re doing here. The trip from Shah Alam took approximately 5 long hours (though I mentioned 8 in the video to exaggerate) with 3 pit stops to lunch and…pee. As I’m typing this I have to endure a tremendous amount of pain due to cramping on my right foot: I just bought my hiking shoes last night and I only had today to start breaking in the shoe. Anyways, let’s talk about the journey so I’ll start with something I love. Cars.

            I love cars. Anyone who knows me well can prove that. Not just supercars; any cars will do unless they don’t click with me. On my way to Cameron I saw an Aston Martin DB9. I HEART ASTONs. Period. If there’s one car I would love to own in this world if I’m a millionaire it would be an Aston. Any model will do. You’ll probably say they are tons of supercars out there to love so why A.M? Simple: It appeals to me. I find Astons to be more practical compared to say a Lamborghini or Bugatti. That doesn’t mean I don’t want a Veyron if I can afford it but the car isn’t that practical and not all that sexy. The thing about cars is, my friends/peers/people I know, they love taking pictures of themselves posing beside strangers’ expensive cars (supercars, luxury, etc.). It’s not wrong but it annoys me in a way. Sorry I can’t explain why but it just does. BUT I love taking photos of them without a model. Taking pictures of cars is an addiction of mine. It makes me forget about problems and I get to be in my own world which is a good thing. Just like tennis, when I’m on court I feel ‘home’. I never like pictures of myself with a car. I never liked pictures of myself either. Sure I might take one or two only if it’s an Aston though but it is an act of disgrace, IMO. Being in your comfort zone can always make you feel better about what lies ahead. The idea of doing an interpretation studio in Cameron got me freaked out. I’m a fast thinking person at theoretical matters but when it comes to field work, it’s a disaster. But seeing that DB9 made me tell myself “It’s gonna be a good trip. Nothing’s gonna bring you down. It’s your moment to shine so give it your best.” That’s all it took to lift my mood. Weird, but true.

            I’ve been on long journeys more times than I can remember.

…

(Dinner – Steamboat)

(Briefing)

            Ugh my foot is still cramping and the chilly weather isn’t helping much. Where was I? Oh yeah, long journeys. Long journeys can take up to 5 hours ++ travel distance and I believe my longest yet (locally) is 8 hours to Kedah. When it comes to far distance locations my preferred mode of transportation is always tour busses or cars. I do not like taking flights simply because there isn’t much to see in the sky. A 5 hour bus trip isn’t that interesting to a lot of people but I’m not like ‘a lot of people’. Others may pull their curtains so that they’re able to sleep throughout the journey but I like my shades to be as wide open as possible (except when the damn sun’s shining in my face). Enjoying the view is my primary reason for doing so, then comes spotting supercars and bikes and finally (and I’m not kidding) admiring infrastructures such as retention walls and marble factories. Call me a weirdo if you may but my interests usually don’t follow the norm of others. No matter the case, I feel grateful that I have my good friends around me. I might not even survive in university without them. Take my just-became-close-friend, Shafiq Latif who’s also my housemate. I’m currently suffering foot cramps and he massages it without complaining. I can safely assume he actually enjoys it. My girlfriend, Rafidah, is constantly worrying ‘bout me when she has much bigger issues to worry about. These are just 2 of many people close to me that I can consider as family. If you read my first entry in this blog you’ll know that I’m very particular when it comes to making friends. Being a friend of mine just for the sake of being a friend isn’t what I’m looking for. When I consider somebody a friend, it shows that I care for that person in a way that I consider them to be a major part of my life. People in facebook are mere acquaintances. That’s the beauty of the online world.

Anyways, I’ve to end the blog here ‘cuz it’s 12.30 a.m. and I’m the MC for tomorrow’s morning briefing/lecture. I’ll be sure to post something new soon if I have the time.

Cheerio :D

THESIS: The one thing that shatters students' heads

Today I've experienced level one of Hell. It wasn't as hot as you would imagine though. It was this cold, dark and empty feeling that encompassed me like being in a world of nothingness. A void, I would say. It all started when I woke up at 4 a.m. today. It might sound like it's nothing but I DON'T wake up at that hour especially when I was dead tired the day before. So I was kind of moody in Law class and extremely drowsy in Tech-environment class. This happens to me sometimes so I was hardly shocked by it.

Then we had a meeting after Techno. A meeting which I knew the topic of discussion was. THESIS. I knew the day before that our lecturers were going to announce something about thesis to the semester 4 (which I'm in) and semester 6 (Thesis batch) students. So they went on about what thesis is all about (yeah, hardly anything new) and stuff relating to it. Then they dropped the bombshell. Sem 4 students have to submit our proposals in 2 months. That's 2 semesters ahead of schedule! BOOM.

Have you ever felt like you just lost something dearly, something precious like a family member that just passed away? I'm sure you have. It doesn't hit you straight away rather it takes its time...slowly creeping in your head until you feel like the world around you doesn't exist anymore. That’s exactly how I felt this afternoon. I looked like a zombie after a few hours. Even typing this seems hard simply because my head is so darn ‘saturated’ with Nothing.  Wondering what I’m worried about? It’s definitely not the thesis report because everybody knows how good I am with reports. What I’m not good at is finding a topic. I’ve been thinking about research topics since the announcement and I’ve come up with a few ‘exciting’ ones. The problem is none of them are viable because my sample populations are not easily approachable. What am I interested in this course? What do I like researching about? I don’t know! I honestly don’t know! Dear Gods in Heaven/s, how am I supposed to survive like this? The burden of all burdens a Degree student can feel has been imposed on me.

P/s: I won’t be in Shah Alam next week (3/10/11). I’ll be away with my batch conducting our studio project at Cameron Highlands, Pahang. I’m in charge of the video recording and ‘show host’ for my group. Since I have 2 separate memory cards and a spare battery I guess I’ll be doing videos for this blog/YouTube. I’ll see you guys next time :D PEACE.

Honestly Dunno How to Name This...

Last night I had a bad dream. The dream itself was nothing but the experience was bizarre. I was half conscious and half asleep. Anyways, that's not the point. LOL. Why mention it, right?

Do you appreciate what you have? Honestly think about it. If someone were to come up to me and ask that I would take a moment before answering it. The only reason why I say yes is to avoid being lectured. Nobody's gonna lecture me here so truthfully: I don't know. I do appreciate what I have and the people around me but I don't appreciate myself. I am not a happy person like how people see me. I hate myself all the time without any reason. Ugh. Life isn't easy, I know. This semester isn't easy for me. I'm seriously thinking of quitting but my parents told me to just go on eventhough non of us actually agree that I'm in UiTM. My mum told me this morning that my English is getting sh*ttier and I can't blame her. Ever since I entered UiTM I noticed that. I used to be in a 90% English speaking environment and now it took a 360 degrees turn. My best friends were over for the weekend last week and one of them actually used Malay and I was in utter shock. I think he's feeling the pressure himself. They are so little people in West Malaysia that actually speaks full English. I know one of my juniors that does and I kinda like speaking to her. Wish there are more of us. Anyways, I've decided that after I get my degree I'll either take my Masters or get a double degree in something that I actually like. I'm really hating life. That's why I have friends around me to take my mind of things. Thanks for being there, everyone.

P/S: Novak Djokovic won the US Open this morning. It was predictable in a way but I seriously thought Nadal had a chance. Oh well. Congratulations, Novak.

US Open Predictions! [Killionaire's Version]

The fourth major tennis event of the year is about to begin...tomorrow. Yes, we're talking about the US Open Championships. So I'd figure I do a take on my predictions for the last major event of the year.

 

2011 has been a year of surprise in the tennis world. Novak Djokovic, a talented young man striving to be the best struggled in the past few years after a major downfall in 2008. Rafael Nadal, the ruthless bull from Spain (literally) seeking to maintain his dominance in the industry after capturing the last 3 majors in a row! Roger Federer, the king of kings, the maestro, the Swiss cheese, the Greatest of All Time (G.O.A.T.) was not so G.O.A.T.-y in 2010 and claims that he’ll do well this year but time and time again we see him defeated in every single event! Andy Murray, the English hope still wants to find that one breakthrough he needs to be on par with the 3 top players of the world.

While they are many talented players in the ATP Tour, tennis has always been about these 4 men. Sure there are people like Roddick, Cilic, Isner and so on but they haven’t been so ‘great’ in big tournaments as of late. BUT who knows they could perform well in the USO? We’ll see but for now, let’s put our focus on the 4 big guns.

 #1 NOVAK DJOKOVIC

The man known to be ‘The Djoker’ in the tennis world didn’t Djoke around this year, if you know what I mean. After the Davis Cup win in 2010 Djokovic soared like an eagle and had an impressive run of 47 wins IN A ROW. WTF!? I know but it’s true. After 2008 he was basically sh*t; he struggled with his serve, his anger management, his strokes, he struggled with everything! But it took a complete 180 degrees turn after the Davis Cup. He clinched his 2^nd Australian Open title then basically all other tournaments he participated in. He even defeated Rafael Nadal in clay tournaments and was seen as a favourite to win the Roland Garros. Unfortunately his streak ended in the semi-finals after being defeated by Roger Federer to simply show that Novak is still a human being. This time, however, that defeat didn’t pull him down. It merely scraped his motivation to be the best and what did he do after that defeat?: He won the Wimbledon, defeating Rafa once again and claimed the No. 1 ranking in the world. Djokovic is a big treat to Rafa in this year's USO. In fact, he’s a big treat to the whole ATP roster! The only thing that concerns me now is that recent shoulder pain he felt which made him retired in the finals of Cincinnati. Novak said it wouldn’t bother him in New York but I personally think that it’ll play its role once the tournament reaches the 2^nd week.

I don’t think he’ll win USO simply because of the shoulder pain. Honestly.

#2 RAFAEL NADAL

With 3 straight major titles in 2010, the then world’s #1 seemed like he’s the ‘bauss’ in the business and became an instantaneous fan favourite (not that he isn’t already) in winning 4 major titles in a row. Unfortunately he couldn’t live up to his expectations. This humble dude from Majorca, Spain has shown the tennis world that IT TAKES MUSCLES to conquer tennis. I’m just joking don’t start a flame war. Haha :D Seriously speaking, Rafa has been an asset to this sport not because he’s the hunk or he’s humble but because he is one of the few people in the ATP that plays with a heart. He cries in tournaments he wins (remember Monte Carlo 2010?), he acknowledges opponents who played way better than he did in tournaments and best of all, and he keeps his composure like a baller. Rafa loves tennis, period. He truthfully told the world that he couldn’t do what he did in 2010 because he knew that there are other formidable forces to deal with and he was damn right about that. I don’t think he expected Novak to take over his No. 1 spot and defeated him twice in clay court tournaments.  Losing to Novak countless of times in 2011 affected his game greatly and he was LUCKY Novak wasn’t in the finals on RG (Thanks, RF). So what are the chances of him defending his USO title? Quite high, IMO. With Novak being a little injured and Federer no longer being at his best I think there’s a chance he’ll win USO again.

#3 ROGER FEDERER

Ugh. A tough one, really. I honestly have no idea what to expect from the maestro anymore. He is 30 (Aug 8) now and generally 30 year olds don’t do well in tournaments, except if you’re Andre Agassi. His performance has been shadowed by younger opponents and he has only won ONE tournament this year which didn’t include any of the other 3 top players. Roger was seen crashing out early in tournaments except for RG this year which shed hopes to some that he could still play tennis like a true G.O.A.T. Unfortunately being in the finals of RG still raise doubts in me that the legend can win USO this year. I’m a big fan of him. I grew up knowing Roger and I still idolize him but 2011 is not his year. Good luck in the US Open, RF. You’ll need it.

#4 ANDY MURRAY

Andy has always been in a special reserved place in my heart. Sounds gay, no? :D Being the only hope for Britain burdens this young man a lot so he is always pressured in every single tournament he enters. He doesn’t win them but he knows how to make his opponent suffer the Murray-wrath whenever he plays…at least for a set. Murray needs to know how to strengthen his mind power. He’s a great player without a doubt but when he start making errors you’ll know the match is over. HE LACKS MENTAL STRENGTH. After ‘defeating’ Novak in Cincinnati Open people put high hopes on him to win USO. I think he has a chance to do so if he knows how to pressure his opponent instead of pressuring himself. Look at Novak, that bloke break racquets like it’s a hobby and swears (in Serbian) a lot BUT always manages to win the match. Murray is the complete opposite. Once you see him smash his racquets or swears (in English :D) he’s guaranteed to lose. I want Andy to win a major, I really do. He has the potential. I know he can do it. I WANT HIM TO WIN THE USO.

OTHER PLAYERS

GG GL HF (Good game, good luck, have fun). Haha :D

Q & A with Nic. Getting to know the man better!

Internet celebrity Nicolai Sidek [Killionaire] recently gave (himself) an opportunity to know more about him and the interview took place in a rather…‘intimate’ location. Here’s how it went:

Q: Hey, self.

A: Hey.

Q: Self, it’s a pleasure to finally meet you. I know the timing was a bit unorthodox but thanks anyways.

A: I feel stupid.

Q: Yeah you should be. You’re interviewing yourself. Wait…what the hell?

A: Yeah, tell me about it. I just couldn’t sleep.

Q: So who are you?

A: If you don’t already know then you shouldn’t be in my bedroom.

Q: The question wasn’t directed to me, retard.

A: Right. I am Nicolai Zacq Sidek. Boring, a douche, and thinks he rules the world. What’s there to know about me? You’ll have to be more specific than that.

Q: You can start by telling us why you have decided to kill the other blog.

A: I didn’t really kill it I simply ran out of ideas and I thought the blog name is dumb. I needed to do something rather interesting than just ‘tennis stuff’. Makes people get closer to me. I would still post stuff about tennis if I find anything worth posting, though.

Q: ‘Finding Heart’. Don’t you think that’s a little camp for a guy?

A: I know right? But it makes me feel unique in a way ‘cause I’m a pretty heartless person to begin with and so I thought why not make my new blog title something I can relate myself with.

Q: You have a heart. It’s pounding inside you.

A: Are you gonna keep asking me rhetorical questions because I’m starting to get bored. Oh, I’m easily bored too. See, I just gave you another trait of mine (smiles).

Q: Yawn. Fine, what do you do for a living?

A: I’m a university student in UiTM (Mara Institute of Technology) in Shah Alam, Selangor majoring in Parks and Recreation Management. Yeah, I can see you saying “What the f***?” but believe me when I say it’s not an easy task to explain what’s it all about. I find it hard explaining it to almost everyone I know outside the program let alone trying to explain to myself. But things are sort of going my way so that’s a good sign.

Q: I’ll take your word for that. Let’s talk interests. Anything in particular you would like to share with the audience?

A: I have a lot.

Q: Well?

A: Hmm? Oh, right! Sorry I phased out there. I love playing tennis, watching tennis, and buying tennis-related stuff for the hell of it. Basically I’m a tennis jock. I idolize a lot of the ATP and WTA pros and I wish I could play like them or half as good as they are but I can’t. Sad case, I know.

Q: How about non-tennis stuff?

A: Well I ‘hangout’ on YouTube most of the time. I not only watch a ton of videos a day but I do record some myself. Currently I stopped recording because I do not have a video camera but once I get back to Kuala Lumpur I’ll start posting again. Other than that, I would probably be working out ‘cause I’m not sexy enough, shopping by myself, photography and supercar spotting. I am also an active Starcraft II player but I don't really consider myself a gamer because of my busy schedule.

Q: Sounds very anti-social, no?

A: I wouldn’t define myself as anti-social although I am slightly leaning towards that. While it’s true I don’t hang out with real people that often I do force myself to find new friends wherever I go. I’m very picky when it comes to people. I do not like almost everyone I know except my best friends (they know who they are. They have been with me since the early days of primary school!). I recently picked up CLUBBING as a ‘social’ hobby even though I totally did not think I would like it.

Q: Speaking of YouTube vids, didn’t you tell (me) that you wanted to start podcasting and Vlogging (Video Logs) instead of a blogging?

A: Oh, yeah it’s a good thing you reminded me of that. I AM still gonna be doing podcasts and Vlogs but it is good to write once in a while simply because I love writing. There, another bonus trait revealed. Once I’ve set up all the equipment I need and by set up I mean BUY them I’ll begin these projects.

Q: You’re doing things that isolate you from the outside world, well mostly aside from tennis and clubbing. Aren’t you afraid that you’ll be a social outcast?

A: That’s the beauty of the internet, isn’t it? You don’t personally know people so you don’t actually worry about having those feelings. Although I have to say my real world social skills are not up to par.

Q: Wow it’s really bold to admit something like that. Not really into making friends, aye?

A: I have enough friends and I appreciate having them.

Q: Is there a girlfriend?

A: Yes, only one and I do not intend to increase that number. I do love girls, hanging out with them, checking them out and dancing with them in clubs but if anyone ever tells me that I deserve someone better than her my reply would simply be “IDGAF”. I decide who is right for me, not you. And never ask me if I’m gonna marry her or something because I’ll be pretty much p*ssed of at you.

Q: Another strong statement. Seems like you’ve been through these annoying things a lot.

A: You don’t say….

Q: Moving on. How would you describe yourself to others?

A: Excellent question, self. This is a rather tough one. I have split personalities, really. Sometimes you’ll find me the coolest person to talk to but other times you’ll find me to be the most annoying a**hole you ever met. It’s not something I’m proud of but it’s me and I intend to stay that way. Probably that’s why I love being in the drama club last semester.

   I also have a serious case of OCD especially when it comes to cleanliness and arrangement of my things [READ: JUST MY THINGS]. I have this disease of arranging bottles in a manner that their labels MUST be facing me and some other wacky arranging disorder. When I drink beverages – bottles, cups, glasses, etc. – I must drink from the same exact spot. Ugh. I hate myself sometimes but what can I do?

    

     Before I entered university I was this nerdy dude, very patient, very passive and I’m kinda still am but the whole tertiary education in a different environment thing changed me into a person I really dislike. I am VERY BM [BAD MANNERED] to the extent of hating everyone I don’t care about. Is it due to being surrounded by people with less intelligence than me? I don’t think so because I know a lot of my acquaintances are brilliant. I think it’s the environment of K.L. That part of Malaysia is pretty much f*cked up. Sorry to say but it’s true. It’s all about who gets there first, what time is it and worst of all, the G*d damned traffic jam and hell-driven Satanist drivers. I can rant all day about my life there but there’s no point. I don’t hate K.L., I really don’t. There are many things to love about that place but the majority of the people there…sigh. I better STFU. Next, please.

Q: You’re scaring me.

A: I scare myself all the time so don’t be shocked.

Q: Don’t you share your problems with anyone?

A: I prefer not answering the question because it doesn’t relate to this interview. Some other time, yes but not tonight.

Q: Fair enough. One last question before I leave: on the scale of 1 to 10, 1 being the f*cked up and 10 being ultra-cool, where would you rate yourself?

A: Honestly? 0. I’ll leave the ratings to my friends. Their opinion counts more than mine.

Q: Okay but how do you see yourself to others?

A: You said one question what the f*ck is wrong with you?

Q: You can’t answer the question with a question.

A: And you can’t ask a question with a statement. Get your a** out of my room, jerk. I had enough of you already.

P/s: I do apologize for the crude language but like I said I'm BM so again, I'm sorry. I do hope you enjoyed reading it and they'll be more to FAQs about me soon!

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