Last night I had a bad dream. The dream itself was nothing but the experience was bizarre. I was half conscious and half asleep. Anyways, that's not the point. LOL. Why mention it, right?
Do you appreciate what you have? Honestly think about it. If someone were to come up to me and ask that I would take a moment before answering it. The only reason why I say yes is to avoid being lectured. Nobody's gonna lecture me here so truthfully: I don't know. I do appreciate what I have and the people around me but I don't appreciate myself. I am not a happy person like how people see me. I hate myself all the time without any reason. Ugh. Life isn't easy, I know. This semester isn't easy for me. I'm seriously thinking of quitting but my parents told me to just go on eventhough non of us actually agree that I'm in UiTM. My mum told me this morning that my English is getting sh*ttier and I can't blame her. Ever since I entered UiTM I noticed that. I used to be in a 90% English speaking environment and now it took a 360 degrees turn. My best friends were over for the weekend last week and one of them actually used Malay and I was in utter shock. I think he's feeling the pressure himself. They are so little people in West Malaysia that actually speaks full English. I know one of my juniors that does and I kinda like speaking to her. Wish there are more of us. Anyways, I've decided that after I get my degree I'll either take my Masters or get a double degree in something that I actually like. I'm really hating life. That's why I have friends around me to take my mind of things. Thanks for being there, everyone.
P/S: Novak Djokovic won the US Open this morning. It was predictable in a way but I seriously thought Nadal had a chance. Oh well. Congratulations, Novak.
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